January 2012
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She exists
She is, well she was, and she will be everything that means everything, nothing, and should be, Because she goes on like my sentences because they are her, for her, and not her. ending beginning and continuing I will eventually express all that she meant to me, into me, went to me. Liking all that comes through me, unto me, she appears wonderfully. Full of everything, every word, every means....
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The Crow
The crow crows,
speaking of itself
a voice within a voice
lost within its depths
wisdom beyond years
courage slammed against fears
power consumed burning black its soul
The trick of the trickster
one in the same
as the man in love
with his ruined game
against god he bet
his love away
and for that god took away his name
The soul never dies
It changes in which capsule it lies
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December 2011
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feeding love
I fed love
I fed love hopes and dreams
I fed love diamonds and rings
I fed love whine and cheese
I fed love the most corniest things
I fed love girl after girl
I fed love touching and kissing
I fed love games and words
I fed love moments of her
I fed love
till love grew to fill the being in my shoes, so no one could walk my path believing in you
Like I do
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November 2011
3 posts
WHEN THIS SCHOOL WORK IS DONE
I will release my life unto this tumblr
I want her to walk with me through the streets filled with grey clouds. Not even sad days will make our time together less beautiful.
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October 2011
3 posts
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How I would say
I want to see you more, so each time I can remind myself why I decided that you were unlike any other.
I want to see you, and me, with me and you in each flashback memory I hold when I get old.
I want to see, mental breakdowns, happy highs, bad hair days, I don’t care days, tears falling from your eyes, rain falling from the sky, on us, just so I can tell you that I am so blessed, to be...
September 2011
2 posts
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SHADOW
She is my shadow from the light of my soul
Will she lose herself in me
Or maybe I’ll find that I am the darkness to her shadow
July 2011
14 posts
Sex with Best Friend →
HAHAHAHA, interesting views on the situation
I had this dream of you a while back. Me, Josh, and John were with you and Natasha. Walking in the dark and into the library. We walked down a long flight of stairs, you were upset and went ahead of us all so I took the time to tell Natasha that I know why you were upset.
I told her that you were surrounded by couples like herself and Erik and Vickie and Eli, that you wanted someone to be ...
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She is
She is stronger than any alcohol of various name that mean nothing
intoxication is instantaneous and I haven’t pressed my lips against her
She is the reason I gathered you, the life of this party
Creating notes from your tongues, while my heart beats like drums
She is the stupid words I say, stumbling out my soul
The reason I’m never understood, the bait for a fool
She is the...
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Addiction Apologies
Its actually the saddest thing that can happen to a person,
to be addicted to love.
It is the most dangerous drug, to drink the poison of something so beautiful
for it to taint every person I feel anything for
and when it explodes, I’m awfully sorry
I didn’t mean to unleash my demons on you
I become mad and I want you to accept it
the spiral only goes deeper till i find myself...
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Darkness of the Soul
I could feel my body beat against my soul, it is the willpower of the soul that holds the beast of the body, or is it the beast of my soul trying to engulf my body, and my mind won’t let it. My sexuality seems to be after the soul, to render her body useless because she now feels unreal, Is that a want of the body?…I am afraid that my soul is something I do not want to unleash, until I...
A Fool of Hearts
The first woman I ever loved
was a distant dream
physically there was
me her, and a lot of space in between
I told her “all of this is new to me, because I never been in love before”
enclosed were those words with a hand drawn picture
of her I proceeded to grow with
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but not very far did i soon see
that we weren’t growing together
but...
Sayings for Her
You change constantly, but you seek consistency.
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“People have to really suffer before they can risk doing what they love.”
– Chuck Palahniuk (American freelance Journalist, Satirist and Novelist. b.1961)
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If I were singing Marvin's Room
Drinkings not my Forte Thinking that, that might change Fuck it I’ll just go home Cuz I’ve been in this club too long The woman that I would try Should be happy with a good guy But I’ve been drinking so much That I’m a call her anyway and say “Fuck this feeling that I’ve had so long I know you still think by now I should be gone” I say “fuck these niggas that can’t...
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Children
I could surround myself around children, it is the only time I don’t feel alone or out of place. They are the reason I choose to live my life the way I do. They are willing to learn, and have fun, and be free. I am their role model, I do not wish for them to become like me, but remember those moments as if it were magic. I want to show them the magic within themselves. I don’t know if...
June 2011
1 post
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Only Exception
She told me many things… how her parents love changed seasons when she was young, and now that part of her history has become a dream.
Her reality is, running from herself…
In my mind, I feel like I am part of her dream, that’s how every moment feels with her.
Each unplanned instance, Lingering fear that maybe love doesn’t exist, Conversations just like this.
She has...
